Irritating!!!!
Today is not a good day for me. Already yesterday I feel so shitty. With someone who thinks that I am an emotional punching bag. Dun want to tell me the problem and yet want to take it out on me. Hey! U think only U have problems is it!! If U r tired its not even my fault. WHat U do and NOt Do is entirely UR choice!!!
Today things just got worse. My HOD really tested my patience. 2 days back, she wanted me to join in her Dance CLub. I already have a CCA which is Malay Drums. She claimed that since the cohort is low, I may be pulled out and be put in other CCA which I dun like. So better put in Dance Club which I like and have experience in. I was reluctant. I said I cant commit because I have drums and me n Mis have lots of plans for drums. She said then I just be in charge of the internal stuff such as performances for the school and choreograph as well. I said no to choreographing of course. COme on lah....years of dancing experience doesnt make a gd choreographer. And I know I am unable to also. But she coaxed me and said that its for internal performances only. SO I hesitantly agreed. She also said I need not be involved in other stuff since I am also in drums.
BUT...TODAY...I was shocked when Zan pass me the list for Danceworks next year. Nuraini specifically told me that I am not involved in it. SO I told Zan abt it. She then said that oh...I am doing as part time issit. So I agreed to what she said. So Nuraini was not happy about it. Well, she's the one who told me a different thingy n then said to Zan a diff thing so its not our fault. But she make it sound like I am the one who doesnt want to cooperate. Also threatening me by saying that she can help me if I am put into others CCAs. She also talked abt the choreography thingy. Told her already I am not capable...she not happy. Then I just told her off saying...I know my own ability...I can do it if u want. But for what I do if the end result U r not happy with n then U blame me. Yah...i think it made her more unhappy. BUT who cares....I should be happy to what. It's my body that they are trying to trade!!! AND I AM NOT A TRADING ITEM IN THE 1st PLACE!!!
Finally she admit defeat and say that I will be out of the dance. I said ok. SHe then say abt she cant help me if I am pulled out. I said ok...i dun mind. I was already pissed of by then.
Later Mis called Hanif to ask whether am I really going to be pulled out of Drums. He said high unlikely but possible. Oh gosh! Nuraini is so vindictive!!! She is willing to do all things to make things go her way. But too bad lah...She's playing with the wrong person. I am not as soft as Mis. Sometimes, being stubborn is really a good thing.
I dun care if what I did cost me my performance grade. I dun care if I never get my perf bonus. My aim to be a teacher is to help the students...not chase money. I can do that somewhere else lah.
Today things just got worse. My HOD really tested my patience. 2 days back, she wanted me to join in her Dance CLub. I already have a CCA which is Malay Drums. She claimed that since the cohort is low, I may be pulled out and be put in other CCA which I dun like. So better put in Dance Club which I like and have experience in. I was reluctant. I said I cant commit because I have drums and me n Mis have lots of plans for drums. She said then I just be in charge of the internal stuff such as performances for the school and choreograph as well. I said no to choreographing of course. COme on lah....years of dancing experience doesnt make a gd choreographer. And I know I am unable to also. But she coaxed me and said that its for internal performances only. SO I hesitantly agreed. She also said I need not be involved in other stuff since I am also in drums.
BUT...TODAY...I was shocked when Zan pass me the list for Danceworks next year. Nuraini specifically told me that I am not involved in it. SO I told Zan abt it. She then said that oh...I am doing as part time issit. So I agreed to what she said. So Nuraini was not happy about it. Well, she's the one who told me a different thingy n then said to Zan a diff thing so its not our fault. But she make it sound like I am the one who doesnt want to cooperate. Also threatening me by saying that she can help me if I am put into others CCAs. She also talked abt the choreography thingy. Told her already I am not capable...she not happy. Then I just told her off saying...I know my own ability...I can do it if u want. But for what I do if the end result U r not happy with n then U blame me. Yah...i think it made her more unhappy. BUT who cares....I should be happy to what. It's my body that they are trying to trade!!! AND I AM NOT A TRADING ITEM IN THE 1st PLACE!!!
Finally she admit defeat and say that I will be out of the dance. I said ok. SHe then say abt she cant help me if I am pulled out. I said ok...i dun mind. I was already pissed of by then.
Later Mis called Hanif to ask whether am I really going to be pulled out of Drums. He said high unlikely but possible. Oh gosh! Nuraini is so vindictive!!! She is willing to do all things to make things go her way. But too bad lah...She's playing with the wrong person. I am not as soft as Mis. Sometimes, being stubborn is really a good thing.
I dun care if what I did cost me my performance grade. I dun care if I never get my perf bonus. My aim to be a teacher is to help the students...not chase money. I can do that somewhere else lah.
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