Weighing the possibilities...

Finally...after so long...I get to blog again as today I am on MC and Syirah is at mum's place. Today I am feeling so frustrated. This is because...I have taken MC for I dunno how many times and it's not even the second part of the year. It's either because I am ill..or Insyirah's ill.

Last year, the school was not happy that I was on MC for numerous times (due to my complicated pregnancy). This year I thought things would be different. But then....I think it will just be the same.

I feel like I want to stop working for maybe a year or two to take good care of my Syirah and be less stressed juggling career and family at the same time. But then, situation does not allow it. I do not want things to be like this Malay proverb, " Yang dikejar tak dpt, Yang digendong keciciran". That is...as a result of wanting to be a good career woman and mother...I am not good at both.

I dunno why lately I've been feeling down as a result of this...(maybe due to PMS?). Maybe I have to accept the fact that I am just human, I can't be perfect at everything. I should just do what I am supposed to and try to do it as best as I could as a human being...and not force myself to be the best. Then I won't be so broken hearted if things don't go my way.

While waiting at the clinic just now...I was thinking of all the possibilities. I just hope that things will get smoother as time goes by.

To end this depressing entry with a touch of happiness...I would like to congratulate my dear fren Mislimah for her promotion to GEO1A2 this year. Congrats gal!!