Doing my guest list and printing my wedding card

It's really very tiring sitting here all day printing my wedding card and listing down my guests. My marking...nothing is done. Ok let's think positive..my lesson plan is finished.

Planned to do my marking yesterday but had to settle house issues. Sigh...wat to do.

18th March, Saturday...that's my big day. Hope everything will go as planned.

Having some peeps to perform during that day too. My dance mates will be contributing 3 items. My drums boys will accompany during the procession as well as performing 1 item. My ex boys will be performing dikir barat. So kind of them.

Urgh...my neck is beginning to be stiff and my back is aching. But my target today is to print as much cards as my printer can take. In the meantime, will ask for my guests address and do my marking.

I feel good....jeng jeng jeng jeng jeng jeng jeng!!!

Khakhakaha..I dunno why but I am feeling good all over today. I have 3E, 1E and 1N today. Maybe because my workload is lighten by 6 periods coz the practicum teacher has taken over my class. Thanks Az!!

I am now planning my lessons for next week already. Dunno why the sudden energy and enthusiasm. Maybe the fire that use to burn during my practicum time is burning again since the arrival of Az. Thanks Az for the second time!!

Showed video clips to my 3E and 1E today. Although carrying laptop, portable projector and speaker is very heavy and setting them up is cumbersome, I did it!!!

Initially, I didnt use these things anymore coz I was very disappointed that they still have not installed the projector in our MT room. U peeps want IT based learning and yet...sigh. Pity us as we need to carry heavy things and waste 15 mins to set them up. Yet, they just wun understand.

Today, I persevered. SUCCESS!! Maybe that's why I am feeling good. COz the fiery spirit in me is coming back again. I dun feel that teaching is the actually suicide anymore. As a matter of fact, I look forward to every class coz I cant wait to show them videos, make them listen to songs, present lessons using powerpoints in order they will be more engaged in learning.

Here I come.....!!!

Updates

Marking my 1N's compo right now. Feeling so sleepy. My ugly eyebags are getting worse. By 18th March, I will look terrible if I keep on being like this.

I've been very sick lately. With my infection and cough. Now having days if giddiness, nauseousness and cramps. Guessed my hormone is now haywire...very. I am now like so weak..maybe anaemic due to lotz that loss. Geez.

Assignments to be marked are really piling up. Sometimes, I can only return them 3 weeks after they handed in. But it is just impossible to do in such a short time. Have 7 classes to teach.

Oh shit! Now I am super sleepy. How to continue my marking?!!! I am like typing with my eyes closed. Maybe I should just take a break now...

Argh! Tomorro our school is gonna have IPP exercise!! Argh!! Few hours of chaos. If I have to stay with my form class for just 15 minutes also...it will still be a miserable 15 minutes. With noisy boys and blur FT.

K...better sleep now to get as much energy for tomorro. Chow.

Another life lost....

I an on MC today. Bad cough till last night I had trouble breathing. Today I have 10 periods so I decided to rest at home instead. Went to the doc for 2 checkups. Still awaiting result for another one.

Amli messaged me just now informing that Ibrahim, my ex JI-mate, had just passed away. He had been battling cancer for quite sometime now. A healthy, sporty person...gone just like that. It somehow made me gloomy the whole day. Thinking about my life, my future.

This life is just a loan from God. He can just take it whenever...wherever. We have to make full use of what life we have remaining to do good deeds, treat ourselves well etc etc.

2 happenings that brought me really down. 1st-my ungrateful students. 2nd-the loss of a life.

Right now, at werk, I am feeling so low. It's as if this whole job is not for me. It's as though that I am not good enuff.

I hope there'll be light after the rain. I surely need it.

A gloomy afternoon

Today...I am feeling better. Though the hurt is still aching in my heart. It's as if he had threw thousands of knives at me and each of them pierced thru my vital organs especially my heart.

Hours spent because of them despite busy schedule and jeopardising my rship. Sharing personal problems with one another. Laughters and tears. Sorrow and joy.

However, yesterday...all was destroyed. WHateva sentimental values I have of them...most of it went down the drain.

I was so hurt yesterday. SO very hurt. Forgive? Yah...this will eventually happen coz I am a forgiving person. Those who had done me wrong will vouch for that. But those hurtful words, the tone, harshness...they will scar me for good. It will be a token of reminder, do not give 100% trust and hope to ur students. Coz when they break it, u will be really disappointed. When they break your heart, you will be devastated.

I was hysterically crying about it yesterday. The hurt was unbearable. Even hubby was shocked upon seeing my reaction. They are not like my other students. They were there with me thru thick n thin. Yet now, these same students that were lights in my darkest sorrow, engulfed me in darkness.

I've learnt a good lesson from this. Never be too close with ur students. Never put such high hopes in them. Carry out ur duties well and never compromise.

CHINGAY 2006

Yesterday was the preview. Today was the real procession. There were many groups involved. Of course my dance group was involved but this year I did not perform. This year, my drums boys participated so I had to accompany them.

Today was tiring because yesterday me and M had to accompany them. Then, some of my students just had to create trouble. They are the seniors which I hope I will get rid of them soon. They think that they are so damn good so they have this atttitude that really sucks. I guess leniency has been given to them for such a long time. This time, I hope they will be pulled out of the next performance for their behaviour. If not, I think I myself will pull out of the group. Just can't take it anymore......discipline-wise sucks. And it is extra sucks when leniency is given to them too much.

However, my juniors are far better. Their attitude are so much better. They are not stubborn or obnoxious like the seniors. Maybe I should wait 1 more month coz these seniors will be gone by then. I think since there are 2 teachers-in-charge, I will handle more of their discipline and she can handle the liaising stuff. We both can share the other admin work. This was suggested by hubby. Maybe it can work...but I have to talk to M about this first.

Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself today...by going upfront and joining the fun of other groups. Our group was quite boring. Never mingle with the crowd much..not si hot hip cool and happening. Maybe because of the irritating V peeps who kept cheering about their school. Urgh...! I am proud of where I came from too but I dun need to constantly irritate other peeps by cheering and showing I am from high up there and others are nothing. As a matter of fact, I came from nothing.....some of the peeps I know came from high up there but never make it even. So maybe next time u V peeps can be involved with others and be united instead of trying to show ur superiority. As a matter of fact, u V peeps sucks coz the way u danced really was super sucky and so NOT IN!!!

Oh well....went back to school put down instruments and headed down to GreenRidge to eat at Kopitiam. Had rojak. After that, went back home with my cuzzies sleeping over. I slept like a log. Maybe next year, I would rather dance than accompany a group of spoilt brats.

On MC

Today... I am on MC. Having cramps AGAIN!! Wat luck.

Today I woke up realising that I have not called the school that I am on MC. DIE! When I called, Kak Normah said that N was furious. So I msged her with wateva battery power I have on my hp. She replied saying that it's ok. Phew!

Went to the doctor to get my medication. Now feeling slightly nauseous.

Waiting for my hubby to return from his Advance Diploma course. Now that he is pursuing his study...he will always be back late on every Wednesdays and Fridays. I hope he will get what he aims for.

Right now, I have to check my laptop first. My space is depleting and pictures are multiplying. I guess 30GB aint enuff huh. Plus now, even my sis uses this lappy. My burning machine is slightly cocked up right now I dunno why. Maybe I just need to buy CDs from a different brand.

I am so sleepy but need to do my marking. I have lots of them piling up. Since marriage and being an aunt, I just dun have the time to do marking. Now, I must stay in school to finish them up. If I bring them home, they will be untouched.

Ok...need to do my marking now. Chow!