Few more days to go....

This week...I am like pushing myself to the limit to go to work. Tummy is getting heavier and tighter as baby is getting bigger. And now...baby's every move is quite painful and sometimes very especially when she is pressing my ribcage area. Yesternite I couldnt sleep well coz baby was moving rapidly. Even had a nightmare..dreamt of the LADY IN WHITE.

Today..felt weaker than usual..and tummy more painful...had to finish my marking despite the pain I am feeling. Kept telling myself...few more days to go..after that students will be having their exams and I can relax already. This Fri I will be seeing my gynae and hopefully she'll give me bedrest coz I really cant tahan anymore.

At home...I also had to push myself to do household chores. Vacuuming, doing laundry etc etc. Sometimes I even hang out the laundry to dry. Have to...if not..the house will be in a mess as I am having a not very helpful person in the house...and this will add to my misery and stress.

To those women who are treated like a princess/queen at home while u are pregnant..count yourselves lucky. Thank your hubbies for their kind understanding and helpfulness..helping u ard the house and keeping u happy. Coz not all are as lucky as u....I think...I've cried like so many times this 8 months that I couldnt count.

So I really hope to get bed rest..so at least I can stay home...keep my home clean and tidy without needing to be more stressful with work.

Right now...I pray that my baby is confirmed a girl so that she can help me around the house in the future...be someone I can talk to when I am bored...or watching TV or need someone to talk to. I really can't wait for her arrival....

FRUSTRATION!!!

After resting for abt a week...I am finally back in school. Woke up early in the morning at abt 3-4am with sore throat and slight fever. Then...at 6am with bad backache. Hubby asked me to take MC but I pushed myself to go to school.

On the way..felt slightly giddy..so I really took a slow walk. My throat is super irritating. Thanks to my dear niece and nephew who passed the germs to me.

I missed the massage session that my SWC organised coz had to eat breakfast...before I faint again in class. Had my 3E at 8am till 9am...already feeling giddy..and sitting was not helping either. Since I tot..ok..my breakfast was not enuff...went down for early lunch. Had rice, chicken, vege...all the stuff that could fill me up...BUT.....I AM STILL FEELING GIDDY!!!

I am actually feeling frustrated coz I dun like it wen I feel helpless. My checkup said that everything is ok..no low blood pressure...no low sugar...but wat's happening to me??? Issit iron? So now I am taking the multi supplement hoping that it'll get better....still no effect. I cant take the medicine doc gave coz that causes giddiness...so ironic...to overcome giddiness..the medicine makes me more giddy and sleepy. HOW? HAVE TO WORK EH?

Maybe I sound so pathetic...yah lah...all these are part n parcel of motherhood...but for a person who doesnt like to become a liability to others...I am frustrated!! I would prefer if the doc said there's something wrong so she'll give me bed rest..rather than saying..there's nothing wrong..no rest..but I still feel this way!!

Cant take maternity leave as it must be 4 weeks before the EDD..which is only in May. Cant take no pay leave as my situation doesnt permit. NO BED REST..NO LEAVE...SO WHAT SHOULD I DO??

Did I just faint??

This trimester...I kept feeling light headed n all. When to the doc but they said everything ok..blood pressure ok. My GP even said that it's normal this trimester as baby is taking nutrients away from mummy. Yesterday, I felt extra tired in school....this actually made me miserable coz I felt so frustrated being a liability at my werkplace right now.

Today morning...I felt so tired upon reaching school. Got 1st 2 classes in the morning some more. While teaching my 1E..I suddenly felt giddy. Usually I will just sit on the table to make myself feel better or prevent myself from getting worse. But...I still didnt feel better. My giddiness became worse n worse...

Next time I know..my BIL was in front of me...and I think he slapped me on the thigh. Yah..BIL was on relief for Mislimah as she was on hospitalisation leave. I didnt realise that I actually blacked out. I woke up...situation was haywire..with students running ard...panicking...teachers coming over...panicking...wheelchair...there were like....about 6 teachers there. I actually laughed and got super embarrassed.

I was wheelchaired to the office where I got to find out that my VP called my hubby's VP as he did not know my hubby's number. SO FUNNY and EMBARASSING!! Hubby quickly came over after I talked to him on the phone. He then went back to take the car to bring me to KKH. Then..I saw mum outside the office...argh!!! The school actually called my dad den my dad called mum. ARGH!!

Hubby brought me to KKH. Doc checked everything...NOTHING WRONG!! Alhamdulillah baby is fine...but I was just wondering why den I fainted or kept feeling giddy? Mum told me tat it happened to all her pregnancy and I remembered sis fainted before in the bus. SO I guess...it's inherited...hahaha.

Today was the day I will never forget. Embarrassing u know!! But I am grateful to Allah that me and baby are ok. If i didnt sit on the table I guess I could have fallen and injured myself and the baby. Got to find out that I was out for abt 10 mins...den during that time...some of my students got help...some held me to prevent me from falling off...some couldnt do anything but pray. So sweet of them.

To my students...thank you for alerting the office as well as helping me out. To the teachers who were there..thank you for helping me out. I was shocked myself that I was in that state. AND I really hope it wun happen again!!!