Holiday lai liao!!

It's the holidays!!! Still got few more weeks to rest before I step into the WORKING WORLD!!

Got to know my tentative classes....1E, 1NA, 2E, 2NA and 3NA. Timetable will only be out on the 24th JUne, we will be having our contact time then.

Can't wait to start teaching. But I know the werkload will be more.

Oh ya...I am also in charge of Dikir Barat and in the Eagle house. I so much wanna be in Heron or Hawk....Heron coz got Mislimah...Hawk coz my sweet 4NAs are there. But it's ok. Me n my fellow colleagues will bring in fun to the 'boring' Eagles. Hehehhe

Dunno wat to do with my holidays.....will start planning as soon as I get my pay...hahahahahha

LIVERPOOL won!!

Well...I am actually not a die hard fan of Liverpool. But it's been a while since I watch a game of soccer...so I decided to stay up. I actually love watching soccer but then in this house, there's no soccer fan to become my late night partner. And so I stayed up...It was all worth it.

Initially, I thought AC Milan would won the game. Who dun when they scored at the 1st minute!!! Liverpool was all over the place for the 1st half. They were a huge disappointment at first. They dun look like they were ready for the game. I think many people gave up watching after the second half but I didn't. Well, it was all worth it. Liverpool scored 2 goals back to back in a matter of minutes. Congrats Liverpool! To all of Liverpool fans out there, it's time for us to have our well deserved sleep!! Heheheheh.

Just now in school didn't do anything much. No relief to do also. So maybe tomorro I wanna volunteer myself to become photographer of the day for the CIP thingy for sec 3. Furthermore, it will be Redha's last day tomorro. I am sure she wants some memories to be kept.

Something happened today. I realised that I have not been in the best shape lately. A lot of things had happened. Since I started to come back to school....I decided to start afresh. I guessed that wen we new teachers started out, we tend to be to excited about changing students' life. I guess I am no different. So maybe I should chill a bit. Give some time to myself and my personal life. I should learn how to let go sometimes. Well....life is like flying a kite I guess...there are times we need to pull and there are times we need to let go. However, we should know the timing coz if we pull too hard we may break the string...and if we let go to early, the kite may fall as the string is too loose. I guess this also applies to taking care of my students.

So here I am!! The new Nany!! Trying to figure out new things in life. Learning a lesson from past mistakes....trying to make meself a better person.

Yas n Ricky Wedding

Went to Yasmine's n Ricky's wedding just now at Bukit Batok. Had a diff time finding for the place. (Didn't know that a fellow 'local' couldn't even find the place). Well...we arrived just in time. The groom just arrived. Everything was superb...the dias...the bride n groom...the performance..the food...everything...except US I guess. Well, but a wedding shouldn't be spoilt coz of that.

Nice wedding...quite grand. Well...to Yas n Ricky...Slamat Pengantin Baru. May U both stay happy always.

COnfused

I dunno what state I am now. I am super duper confused. One time it's not ok...den it's ok...den it's not ok. So what is it now? Why do I always have to be on the line? Dunno wat's my fate. Why must everytime it's decided by someone else? Why do I always keep doing this?

Is it because of love? Yah....people say love does make us do stupid stuff. LOve is blind...love is colourless...love is bounderless....love is this love is that....bla bla bla.

I dunno wat to do anymore. Maybe just let fate decide. If it's meant to be it's meant to be. If it's not....I'll just treasure every memories we once shared.

Heartbroken

HEARTBROKEN

Posted!!

MOE letter has finally arrived! I am posted back to ZSS. Dunno whether to be happy or not. Actually am looking forward for it....but due to the 'thingy' I am quite heavy hearted. Maybe I should just start afresh there. Ignore wat these young, childish kids say. Yah!!!

Think about how many other kids I can help. My colleague who is really in need of a helping hand. Think positive!!! YESH!!!

Been busy

Finally...manage to squeeze some time for my blog entry. I've been busy since practicum actually. Even after my practicum ended, I couldn't rest. On 30th April, went out with Az n Redha to have dinner. Den went over to my sis place to see wat I could help for her wedding. However, I was too tired and I slept upon reaching there. Was woken up by the high pitch voices of my aunts. Couldn't take it anymore so I went home instead to continue sleeping. I know I have not been much involved in my sister's wedding, but I am really lethargic. Teaching has drained away all my energy.

To top it all off, I am currently tutoring my students outside school. I may not be the best tutor for them, but to see them all motivated to study, I willingly sacrificed my energy and time to be present whenever they want to come down and study. So now my daily routine will be....morning NIE...around 5pm tutoring. Quite draining but I find it all worth it whenever I see my students studying.

However, it saddened me as I am not getting any support from my own fiance. He kept pinpointing my mistakes saying that I shouldn't be doing wat I am doing. It is frustrating. I tot he, a teacher himself, would understand. BUT...sigh.

So these past few weeks I have been feeling like shit. No one to share my probs with as the one I depend on is not giving me his moral support. I am doing this out of my own free will...yes I know I can't help everyone...but all I need is moral support. And I am not getting any. And all throughout till now I am feeling so shitty....thinking abt wat my fiance said....made me feel like i am a bad teacher. SIGH

I dunno wat's gonna happen. But wat I am sure of, I am going to help these students no matter wat. I am not going to abandon them just like that. So to those who dun understand and be judgemental....I DUN CARE!! I am doing this for my students....no matter wat happen.

My sister's wedding

Yesterday was her wedding solemnization. Today...her wedding ceremony. Now I know how tiring it is to be the bride's sister. SUPER TIRING!! Got to run here and there!!

I realised that I was not so involved in her wedding....well, it's during my practicum. So by the time I got back...I will be super shagged. But then, I do give a little hand here and there.

Furthermore, it's my first time being a bride's sister....so I guess...I wasn't sure of what to do.

But people noticed....most of them can't understand what is so damn tiring about teaching. Well...TRY IT!! Den U'll know!!

Well, to my sister....all the best in ur new life. I've seen u through ur ups and downs...I pray to Allah may ur wedding be a blessed and happy one. Although I dun show u how I cared and loved u...I do. ANd I hope that ur marriage will be the beginning of a beautiful life ahead and the end of all pain.