~Timeless Memories~: November 2005

Lethargy is getting hold of me

It has been a long time since I update this blog. Hey! Have not had my deserving rest after the Malay Camp ok!!!

After the camp ended on Friday 25th, I couldnt get a well-deserved rest coz my Saturday and Sunday were fully occupied.

On Monday, I had to go to ROMM and then in the evening to my Sec 4/5s prom nite.

I have a course from Tuesday till Friday. Then Saturday and SUnday got another course. Maybe then I can get my rest before my big day.

Malay Language Camp-Day 1

1st day of camp....ok lah. Alhamdulillah things went quite fine. Though we took a lot of time to divide the students into groups. There were about 90 students who came. Ok lah. It was suprising as students like Rafi, Yat etc came as they told me they dun wanna come. Heheh..I was happy.

After deciding on their group names and designing their logo, we had lunch before proceeding to the zoo.

The Amazing Race thingy went quite well.

Overall, quite fun but tiring. Especially because I was having bad cramps just now...so I was cranky. That got me to become easily pissed esp at this person. Well, just have 2 more days left. Hope tomorro will be fine too.

Raya Outing with JI peeps

Went to Abg Mail's house first. Had Mee Goreng there. Was so full already. Then to Dirah's place. After that went to Andy's place before going to Aiz. At Andy's we ate Tulang. Very very full. Only managed to eat 1 tulang only. At Aiz's place, we ate Bee Hoon Goreng. So so full!!!
Last place was at Abg Idris which we had dessert.

Quite a fulfilling day but Aiz wasnt present. He had to work in the afternoon at the last minute.

We plan to go honeymooning together next year June. Cant wait!!!

Perjumpaan Hari Raya @ Zhenghua CC

My Malay Drums boys had invitation to perform @ Zhenghua CC tonight. As a result, me n Mis had to miss Veron's wedding and Zan's open house. I also couldnt get to watch my Sayang @ Dunearnite. It's ok lah, at least for my Drums boys.

Their performance was ok. Their drums were having problems for being exposed too much in the aircon so the sound wasnt crisp enough. They were disappointed. Well, it will be another lesson learnt.

Had a great time with them. Laughing, eating and being crazy. They were shocked to see the crazy side of me actually...hahaha. After that we went back to school. My Sayang was waiting for me at a nearby block. We moved out things back to the Music Room and packed up.

The boys had to see another side of me....MY FEAR OF COCKROACHES!!!! I was trying to tie a bag of trash when I saw a huge cockroach that made me scream my lungs out and ran to another far corner of the room. All of them got so shocked but later laughed when they knew why. As a result, they kept teasing me. Shucks! I am sure gonna get it from them after all the torture and craziness I gave them tonight.

Before we went back, we managed to pull another trick to Mis. We locked her in school by locking the school gate so she couldnt get out with her car. Hehehehehe. After some time, we released her. Hahahahahahahah....

Really had a great time! It was even greater to see my Sayang waiting up for me. He was all shagged from Dunearnite.

Hey!! It's 1 more month to my wedding!!! YAY!!! Cant wait!!!

To my Sayang

Dearest Sayang,

The day is drawing near. The wedding jitters are already here. I am filling this space especially for you.

After today's incident, my love grows deeper for you. What I said to you just now, I really meant it. 8 years of being together...thru thick n thin...ups n downs...Yes, there were tough times, some tougher than the others. BUt, there were many good times to make up for them. There were much tears wasted, but many smiles n laughter created. There were hatred caused, but many love bloomed. Of course there were doubts, but certainties doubled.

Sayang, these 8 years we've gone thru so much together, especially the last 2 years. Despite all that, our love never budged. As a matter of fact, it is becoming stronger...it is becoming deeper.

Sayang, what I said just now was true. When I told you that I will be with you for richer or poorer, it's really true. I dun need an expensive ring, a luxurious car, a huge house or millions of dollars. I need you to be by my side, shower me with luxurious love, huge hugs and millions of kisses.

I dun think U need anymore proof of my love. These 8 years I stood by your side, and am still standing is enough proof already. Similarly, I dun need U to prove ur luv to me either.

Sayang, I am now picturing us, in the wedding outfit. I am picturing myself salam ur hand and u kissing my forehead. That moment, that very moment...a symbol of our strength of love. I will never forget that moment as that moment will remind me of the day I met u. The beginning of true love.

Sayang, U have given me the best gift ever, that is worth more than money. U have taught me how to love. U showed me the meaning of true love, something I used to deny before I met you.

With this, I will like to end with a quote..."I am just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her." (Notting Hill)

I love you so much, Mr. Izwandy!!!

With lotz of luv,
Mrs. Izwandy

A trip to Sungai Buloh

12 of the ZSS teachers went to Sungai Buloh Wetland Reserve organised by the Green Club. It was my 1st time there. I was excited to go there as I can take lotz of photos with my Nikon. ***need to practice on my skill as well as playing ard with the cam***

Our bus was late so we reached there late. We had only 1hr 30mins to explore the place. What a disappointment because I cant get to practice much on my camera. However, the whole walk (or should I say brisk walk...hehehehe) was really fun, exciting and fulfilling one. I left the place with a heavy heart.

Talked to my dear into going there for the 2nd time. He agreed!!! Hooray!!! Cant wait to go there again when my holiday comes!!!

These are some photos which I took there....

Irritating!!!!

Today is not a good day for me. Already yesterday I feel so shitty. With someone who thinks that I am an emotional punching bag. Dun want to tell me the problem and yet want to take it out on me. Hey! U think only U have problems is it!! If U r tired its not even my fault. WHat U do and NOt Do is entirely UR choice!!!

Today things just got worse. My HOD really tested my patience. 2 days back, she wanted me to join in her Dance CLub. I already have a CCA which is Malay Drums. She claimed that since the cohort is low, I may be pulled out and be put in other CCA which I dun like. So better put in Dance Club which I like and have experience in. I was reluctant. I said I cant commit because I have drums and me n Mis have lots of plans for drums. She said then I just be in charge of the internal stuff such as performances for the school and choreograph as well. I said no to choreographing of course. COme on lah....years of dancing experience doesnt make a gd choreographer. And I know I am unable to also. But she coaxed me and said that its for internal performances only. SO I hesitantly agreed. She also said I need not be involved in other stuff since I am also in drums.

BUT...TODAY...I was shocked when Zan pass me the list for Danceworks next year. Nuraini specifically told me that I am not involved in it. SO I told Zan abt it. She then said that oh...I am doing as part time issit. So I agreed to what she said. So Nuraini was not happy about it. Well, she's the one who told me a different thingy n then said to Zan a diff thing so its not our fault. But she make it sound like I am the one who doesnt want to cooperate. Also threatening me by saying that she can help me if I am put into others CCAs. She also talked abt the choreography thingy. Told her already I am not capable...she not happy. Then I just told her off saying...I know my own ability...I can do it if u want. But for what I do if the end result U r not happy with n then U blame me. Yah...i think it made her more unhappy. BUT who cares....I should be happy to what. It's my body that they are trying to trade!!! AND I AM NOT A TRADING ITEM IN THE 1st PLACE!!!

Finally she admit defeat and say that I will be out of the dance. I said ok. SHe then say abt she cant help me if I am pulled out. I said ok...i dun mind. I was already pissed of by then.

Later Mis called Hanif to ask whether am I really going to be pulled out of Drums. He said high unlikely but possible. Oh gosh! Nuraini is so vindictive!!! She is willing to do all things to make things go her way. But too bad lah...She's playing with the wrong person. I am not as soft as Mis. Sometimes, being stubborn is really a good thing.

I dun care if what I did cost me my performance grade. I dun care if I never get my perf bonus. My aim to be a teacher is to help the students...not chase money. I can do that somewhere else lah.

Wednesday Night Fever

Didnt want to go to school today. Dun feel so well. The day before had fever but it went down. Today in school, the fever came back. Had to do EPMS first before going home. Suppose to teach some students in school but I just have no energy.

Went back home and slept. Fever got worse. 38 degress. So went to the doctor. Got 1 day MC for tomorro. Mislimah too. SO tomorro...we both wun be in school.

Now...fever came down. Throat still sore. But I think right now fever going back up again. Argh...hate this so much!!

I need....

I need a man to give me comfort
To support me in times of need
To give me strength when I am weak
To carry me when I fall

Right now...

I need U

I need U to be by my side
To shower me with comforting words
Make my fears go away

I need U to wash away my sorrow
Bring me smiles and laughter
Make me shine all day

I am not at ease now
Doubts, fear, sadness are haunting me
And I need my knight in shining armour
To rescue me

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

Today is the 2nd day of raya. Going out later with my mum's relatives. Aiyoh...so tired already. Wat worse...today is schooling. Going to school was a drag.

Yesterday was just like the usual. Went to Yishun to my grandma's place...den to my aunt's place at Ang Mo Kio.

Yesterday, I was feeling very emotional. Sad, happy, angry...all emotions in one.

Happy coz of hari raya. Happy that I have survived another raya. Happy that my relationship has survived another raya. Happy that last year incident didn't happen this raya. Happy that this will be the last raya celebrated with him as his fiance. Happy that this year is the start of something I have yearned for years.

Sad coz kept getting flashbacks of wat happened early this year. Sad that the apology that was given to me was not satisfying enough. I am unsatisfied? Yesh...u can say that. Maybe 1000 apologies will still not heal a broken heart. But still...I am expecting something better.

Angry coz of the unsatisfication.

What to do...humans are always thirsting for more. But yesh....I was expecting something better. After all the hurt and pain and suffering...........

Last day of PUasa

Today is the last day of puasa. Many things to do!! Clean up my room...gosh! I do sure have a lot of stuff! Going to send some to my sister. Put there 1st since they got a lot of space in their store alone.

Yesterday I was angry coz of some harsh words that he said. And because of wat he said, FLASHBACKS happened which got me angrier and sadder. I cried. Yupz...as usual. Dis is one thing u all should know about Mohamed Ali's daughter...

DUN EVER CHALLENGE HER!!

Coz U will never know what wrath u may get.

But I forgave him...as usual. Though my heart still hurts. Maybe I should just get use to him doing this to me?? NOT!!!

Enuff abt that. Today spring cleaning. Then break fast at my house. Den went over to his place. He did for me the henna drawing on both my hands. Prefer the one on my left. Hehehehe. Will show u the pics later....