Last day of school

Today is THE day!! The final day in ZHSS. Though I can't wait for it to end...I am still sad of the fact tt I am gonna leave my students. Today I had class with 2E and 1NA. Conducted them in computer lab. After that, I helped REdha to conduct listening compre for 3NA.

I wanted to say goodbye. But I was too sad to even utter a word. I didn't bid a proper goodbye to my 4NA, 2E and 1NA. Only to my 2NT. Maybe it's a sign that I will be coming back. Heheheh.

But it's really sad....well...only until I got back home. I had to think about my sister's wedding then. I think I was too tired to help today so I didn't do much. Went over to my sis's place after eating at Lot 1 Siam Kitchen with Redha and Az. Slept the whole time. Woke up...went back home and slept again.

Well...it's gonna be a busy day for me the next 2 days....I NEED THE REST!!

SAD SAD WEEK

This is week is my last week of practicum. Even though I desperately need the break...I still feel so sad leaving my students. Yesterday was my last lesson with the 2NT. I couldn't hold my tears wen I said goodbye. We took photos. So saddddddddddddddd

I still got 4 more goodbyes to do. Hope I wun shed a tear again.

Since yesterday my mood has been down. Coz the tot of separating with them hurts me. In addition, I am burdened by a HUGE PROBLEM. A problem that I myself seek. Serve me right. I am still in the process of settling it. Going thru self-reflection period. I hope that wateva decision I take...it wun cause any major damage.

Just now I was so sad that I cried in the staff room. I guess...the stress of burying ur feelings wen u dun feel like it got over me. I smile to mask the pain. Laugh to hide the sorrow. Happy to keep the tears. Argh!!!

Getting forgetful

ArgH! I am getting forgetful!!

On Friday I was having fever, cough, nausea n gastric. I still come to school coz my classes were the 1st 4 period. They were cooperative. Thanks to them.

Later I tried to have my brunch but whenever I ate or drink...I just wanted to vomit it all out. So I didn't eat much...sigh.

Before assembly my fever got worse n I wanted to vomit so much. So Giddy. But I still went for assembly. Redha accompanied me to the doctor after assembly. Thanks REDHA!!

The doctor actually gave me an MC dat I dun need!! Hahahah.

Wen I got back..I was miserable coz I may not be able to come for my BBD. However, I forced myself to go. Had a fun time.

Today was the day that I realised that I can't finish up my lesson plans coz all my textbooks were left behind!!! Argh!!! Fed up!!

So this is the reason why I got time to blog in my entry. Ok..I am hungry...gonna go eat. Chow!

A bad day

I was not feeling well today but I went on to school as I had observation. Most importantly, it was because today was with my darling 2NT and 4NA classes. I would not want them to miss out any lessons. 1st class was my 2E....as usual...they like to test my patience. As today I was not feeling well, I became agitated easily. Some of them always neva bring their textbook....and today was the final straw. I made them do 500 lines n hand in by the end of the day. After their class, I just wanted to cry. I was tired, sick, nausea, dizzy, angry n sad.

So I decided to join in Redha's class to boost up my spirit. *Heh heh heh*

After that I got my 2NT and 4NA class. Another spirit-booster classes. Today I was feeling so sad...knowing that I am gonna leave them. Kept all the sadness inside. But when I went back..I just cried.

It's so funny how students can make u hate or luv them. I dun hate my 2E. But then...I am just disappointed at them ah. My 1NA is ok...always so full of energy. Luv them too but they can be a pain too. Hahhaha....

Well...9 more days to go....

Azriana's last day in ZSS

-Her last day in ZSS
-Photo-taking session
-Went to see the Adam Khoo's last session
-Take more photos!!!

A Happy Heavy heart??

14 more days to the end of practicum....Happy!! Yes of course!! But deep in my heart...I am going to leave with a heavy heart.

I am actually worried for my students. How are they gonna fare for their exam? Many other questions lingered in my mind. The connection I have with my students is also one of the reasons why I feel sad about leaving. Especially my 4NA. Initially, they were like zombies in my class. Unresponsive, dead. Assignments...problem handing in. Attendance is also a problem. But now...my relationship with them got better. I can click better with them. Can joke around...they do my work (WOW!)..hand in my homework (although still have problems) and surprisingly...I am seeing faces I have never seen before (attendance problem getting better). Argh!! So emotional....

It's really funny..here I am worried about them..and there they r having a blasse attitude about their studies. Heheheh. But I really hope that they will maintain the change in them even if I am gone. Or maybe be better off without me. To my dearest students, I pray to Allah may u achieve success in ur studies and in life. May Allah shines His light on you so that U will not give up n perservere even wen times are hard. And may Allah make u all into good human beings, contributing to the betterment of the society. Amin.

P.S: Yunakatz guessed that her PMS is getting hold of her. But she is really gonna miss her students.

3 more weeks to go

WOOHOOO!! Can't wait for the 3 weeks to end!! I really need the rest!! Been like a walking zombie for sooooooooooooo long!!

Yesterday was my last observation by my supervisor. Well, she wanted to give me an A but becoz there were some screw ups (esp by the students) I got a B instead (which I am happy with actually). Well, I am just soooooooo delighted that her observation was over. Not that I dun like her or sumthing but all these observations are making me sooooooooo sick!!

Cikgu Saeda has been so nice, understanding and accomodative. She is the best teacher I've ever had!! I will always remember her good deeds all my life!! Thank you CIkgu Saeda for your support all these while. U have become one of my inspiration in continuing my teaching career.

However I still got 2 more observations by my CT. She was supposed to observe me yesterday together with CIkgu Saeda but den she was on MC (SYF fever I guess...coz I saw her at Kallang Theater for the SYF results....hmmm). Luckily cikgu Saeda came to observe, if not..my preparation would be a waste. I should have only 1 more observation to go...but....I still have 2.

2 more and I am a few more steps to being freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

After that...back to NIE for courses and evaluation stuff.

Alamak! Now I remember....I actually have 2 assignments due this week. Oh oh!! I only have today to do it...argh!

K den..see ya wen i c u!!

ZSS got Gold with HONOUR!!!

Today went over to Kallang Theater to know the results of the dance competition. ZSS got Gold with Honour!! Yay!! Many of Abang Osman's school got silver onwards i guess. Ain's schools also got gold. We were so exhilarated!! I am sure the students will be overjoyed!!

After the whole thingy...went over to PA coz they got dance practice. Had Boon Keng's chicken rice. It was really really nice!! Took some photos of them first before going back home. Miss dancing a lot...but my schedule is so tight now that I can't join them. I feel so left out...as if I am missing out a whole lot..I know I am!!! Wonder if I can catch up....sigh

Well...leave that problem till after practicum then....

SYF Dance Competition

Went Kallang Theater to watch SYF Dance Competition. ZSS took part too. Under Abang Osman. I became the photographer of the day.

Upon reaching there, we waited a while before proceeding to perform. I joined None and gang to watch the whole thingy.

ZSS performance was superb!! Though there were slight glitches. But then, it was full of energy as compared to the other contemporary dance items on that day. There's a possibility ZSS can get a Gold or Gold with Honour. I dunno why the students must cry....sigh.

The whole thingy ended at 7pm. We then headed to Haig Road S11 for dinner. My sayang came along too.

It has been a while since I met them all. Missing them quite a lot!!

After dinner we headed back home. I did my marking a little before dozing off.