Shitty n tired...

I am so drained out. Trying to squeeze every ounce of energy I have left inside me. Well, life hasn't always be easy for me. Even till today.

And I am hungry too. Will eat at home. Can't wait to get back home and rest. Though the word "rest" seems to be depleting in my dictionary.

I miss living with my sis...coz I miss Aneeqa, my niece. I also miss having company to talk to. Yes hubby and I do communicate, but somehow its different when U talk to ur frenz or siblings. Yesterday, I managed to see Aneeqa. I was so thrilled. Mum even got me to bring her to school in the afternoon to babysit her. Seeing her smile made my tiredness go away. Seeing her laugh, really can make a bad day turn into a good one. Can't wait to have one myself. Though maybe it will not be all flowery. hehehe.

Went back home had a talk with hubby over some issues. I was disturbed. I felt shitty. It will always stay this way. The trust had gone, the love has diminished. Emotions are numbed. When that happen, nothing done will mend things to the way they were. I am sorry hubby. I so dun want to put u in a tight spot. But I guess, I dun want to sacrifice anymore. I for once want to taste my own happiness without feeling eyed on like an eagle hunting for its prey. I for once want to be free, and not control my every movements to prevent dicontentment.

Right now, a wall has been built. Though the Berlin Wall was able to be demolished, this is a wall of emotions. It will be difficult to just make it go away. Coz though the wall is removed, the scar remains. I guess, only time will tell...maybe time will heal all wounds...but time....time can't removed the scar made.

I want to taste happiness....my own way.....

Arggggghhh...HELP!!!

I AM SO DAMN TIRED!!!!! HELP!!! I AM SQUEEZING EVERY LITTLE ENERGY I HAVE IN MY BODY TO GO ON!!!!

All went well

Despite the rain and strong wind, despite all the things happened, all went well. Was happy to see my relatives and frenz there. Even some of my students were there.

Thanks a lot to my relatives for helping me since the wedding preparation. Putting in the chocolates in the pouches, helped out my mum with a lot of stuff.

To my mum and dad, I owe you lotz. You both helped me SO MUCH....going here n there to buy stuff, cooking various dishes for us and many many more. To my siblings, thank you very much for helping out to make everything run smoothly.

My dearest frenz, thanks for coming. Your presence is really appreciated. My Burger Bundles...U were there to calm my nerves, bring me smiles and listen to all my complaints. hehehe. To my best fren, thanks for being there, though U had to go to 2 places coz 2 of ur gd frens got married on the same day!! hehehe.

To those who didn't manage to come, thanks to for your well wishes. I really appreciate it.

To my lovely dearest students, thanks for coming. Ur presence really touched me. Especially to my ex students who even sang. That's like so very sweet.

Thanks all!! For your presence, patience and kindness. May Allah bless you all.

Wedding preparation

Right now accompanying my hubby while he is doing his drawing assignments. Thought of preparing for my lessons next week. Urgh. This Saturday is my wedding reception. So many things to think about.

Hopefully things will turn out alright. I am soooooooooooo nervous. I even got pimples from the worrying!!! Argh!!!

K...better continue with lesson plans..or maybe marking. :p

SPORTS DAY and BBD

Had our Annual Sports Day yesterday. I actually took part in 8 by 50 Staff Relay!! Hahahah. We got 1st place!!!!! All the running got my adrenalin going. Feel like starting my working out. Have to actually but got no time to do it. Our Drums boys won too...they got 3rd place in Inter CCA 4 by 100 relay.

After that had Burger Bundle at ma place. Miz n Ihahz couldnt come. We watched horror film The Wig. Quite scary actually. Hehehe. Had Pizza and Ice cream from Venezia. Yummilicious. Dun like the Mediterriean Pizza. YUCKS!!

K dats all. Today need to meet Az to give her the caricature. Then to Bras Basah to buy for Andy his early bday prezzie. Then meet Ayu to order my wedding cake. Busy day.

Disturbing stomache

Today...I am on MC again. Have diarrhoea after eating too much pizza with half-cooked crust. Thought it wouldnt bother me but it did. Woke up in the morning and had a terrible stomache. I decided to rest since the stomache just wouldnt go away. Right now, still feel the ache and had gone to the loo twice. Also feeling very nauseous, that I dunno why. Hubby kept saying that I am pregnant which I know I am not coz I calculated.

Now, I have to mark my students CA papers as soon as possible coz I have my mid year paper to set. Will be going to the doctor with hubby later.

K...need to continue my marking

My student in ICU

When I first got a note on my table, my heart beat faster. Who is the person who left this note? Who is in ICU? I was angry coz this anonymous person is such a dumbass. This is sumthing serious and he or she couldnt see that.

During the morning assembly, I somewhat could have guessed who the person is. After the assembly, his cuzzin came up to me to tell me the bad news. She cried and I couldnt hold my tears. When I conveyed this message to my 2T1 students, I cried. He is a very abled boy who has potential in Malay Drums. Despite his physical constraints, he never see it as a liability. I was really sad to see a boy his age in a condition like this.

I couldnt contact his family members as I do not have their contact number (hp no.). Luckily his sister called me. Both his kidney failed and now he is in ICU. He had fits the day before, twice, so the parents brought him to the hospital. I told her that me and M are coming down later.

Seeing his frailed body almost brought me in tears. Luckily he was conscious coz previously his sister said that he wasnt and unresponsive. He recognised us. What a relieve. But, seeing all the tubes in his body really made us sympathised with him. He was shivering uncontrollably. Sometimes he was cold, sometimes warm. He shivered but pespired. Even the nurse was worried.

Me n M went back around 4 coz we have errands to run. I just hope he will get well soon. We will pray that U will recover soon.